Rainy Sunday

The past couple days have been crazy and I have enjoyed a much slower paced Sunday afternoon, thanks to the rain. It stormed last night, and I was able to sleep better than I have in several nights, because the sounds of the storm relax me in a different way. Today I have still been tired, it was a crazy week, with a crazier one shaping up, but to take time and rest and reflect today was much needed.

I have a couple close friends, that always offer sound advice and valuable opinions, and I got the chance to speak with them today. Sometimes it just feels good to talk, and share things you have carried around for too long with others. I am pretty sure it is all in my head, but I at least feel like I may be able to handle things now.

The ‘Morning Pages’ I mentioned in my last post, are really helping. I have found time for them everyday but one, and I should have made myself take time that day. It was the only day in over a week I have had an anxiety flare up. So I am back to it, and sticking with it at least for now in the hopes that it continues to help me.

Every now and then I go on a cleaning binge, and this afternoon inspiration for it struck. I attacked my bedroom lol not nearly as much as I should have gotten done, but enough I felt productive. I cleaned a lot of the clutter and believe me the past few weeks left a lot of it. Papers are now sorted through, trashed and put away. Messes cleaned up from incubation and dress making, and even my laundry is started. I want to finish by taking the table I used for incubation down, and maybe working on my sewing area some more, but I still have all the outdoor chores to do for the evening and no guarantee that I will have the energy when I am finished with that. Cleaning like that always helps me feel better because I have been even a little productive.

I have been spending a lot of time writing lately, journaling, writing scripture, reflecting on some things that I have refused to face. Things that I thought I had dealt with years ago. Everyday is another step in the right direction. Writing has been a great outlet the past couple weeks and I am grateful for it.

The season is starting to change, and with it brings more work and longer days, going to bed tired and sore only to get up and do it again the next morning, but also feeling productive and motivated. Life is good and I am thankful for each day and each chance I have to build relationships and grow, finiding more of myself.

Morning Pages

I was scrolling through Pinterist on a rainy day this week, and I have notice the term ‘Morning Pages’ on several posts in Bullet Journal Facebook groups I have joined and also Pinterist pages. Curiosity got the better of me and I decided to see what this was about.

I have struggled with anxiety for many years, and I noticed that Morning Pages were listed under self care categories across the board. So I started digging deeper and doing more research. I was not disappointed.

I found a good article, and I apologize to the original author I cannot remember where I found it, but it suggested snagging a journal of some kind, and writing 3 pages in the morning. Ok, so what do I write about? was the first question I asked upon reading that. Write about anything that comes to mind. Whatever thoughts cross your mind, let them flow right onto the page in front of you.

This is supposed to act as an outlet and give your nagging thoughts somewhere to go. The author hit really hard on 3 pages. Even if you do not feel like it, write 3 pages. These pages, this journal, is not to be ready by anyone, even yourself, unless it is several months down the road. The goal of this exercise is to let your thoughts run free, unhibited with worry about what someone else thinks.

The day after I read this article, I stopped and got a brand new composition book and picked up yet another pack of pens, comfortable smooth writing ones that were not expensive. I think I may have the start of a pen addiction! And then I wrote. I let my thoughts flow freely, and I surprised myself when I filled up my 3 pages much quicker than I expected.

I am going to try this for the month of June, and see if it helps with my stress or anxiety any at all. There very well may be something to this, only time will tell. When I have journaled before it has helped with my anxiety, but this is the first time I have attempted something quite like this. I would have included these pages in my Bullet Journal, but I did not want to use it up on pages I could not share, because I have shared several speads with friends and coworkers.

Stay tuned for updates on how this goes!